Ass man seeks playmate. anyone else ever feel like this?? I often wonder it's still worth trying Watching the people around me Who don't even care But are blessed with all the things I know I will never be allowed I often wonder if it's still worth trying Since it seems to me That the less you care The more you get So I often find myself wondering When everything went sideways How things ended up backwards And upside down Where the arbitrary descriptions Determine how much or how little You deserve Or even if And so sometimes I wonder why I'm still here Why I still care When it's so glaringly obvious That I'm the only xxx who does Perhaps that's my fault For thinking effort and reward Travel in the same direction For believing that ultimately Logic and common sense will out No matter how uncomfortable The it leads you down may be But I also know that my confusion My wonder All my feelings that are linked to this Are themselves a waste of time So to I suppose Is my belief in any of this Because I know that in the end It will never change So I often wonder why I even care When it seems to me that effort Is nothing more than barrier A handicap Something wasted on people Who don't care It seems to me that if you care And put forth effort Whether just enough or extra Not only will you never be rewarded You will spend your time Watching people who give less than just enough Never be punished I often wonder though If it's the reward and punishment That matters to me Or if it's the simple fact that being willing to try Is both too much and not enough If caring about what you do Respecting yourself and those around you And the opportunities you have Is frowned upon for some And not even expected from others Then again I also wonder why it even matters That there are different standards For people who are seemingly equals After all Some part of me still has faith in people Faith that eventually Some day This sideways universe I'm stuck in Will be allowed to right itself And because I care I try I appreciate and respect When others don't It will all even out Then again I wonder how it will make me feel If people who In the grand scheme of things Really aren't as bad as they could be End up suffering Just so I feel better About the equality of Then too I question if people who don't care Deserve for me to care But I suppose someone has to Because if no xxx cares If no xxx tries or puts forth effort Extra or just average I suppose the rest is just as pointless Because if no xxx cares Why bother So even though I often wonder If it's still worth trying I will Even if no xxx does Because I care And I hope that someday I can learn to be okay with that Knowing nothing good will ever come from it I shall be grateful nothing bad Will come from it either